Friday brought the more than disappointing news that I have no work at the school where I do counselling beyond the end of the summer term, having been told categorically in February that they wanted me back in September. Gnashing of teeth. This currently represents about a third of my income and the work with adolescents the thing I have been most excited about developing, and was going to apply for a training course in... which you have to be working with adolescents in order to do. This situation is a test of my resolve, confidence, resilience and steel. A test which in the short term I have failed miserably (home in tears yesterday, collapsed in bed believing I am no good at anything.) Medium and longer term, I am beginning to see I have resources I didn't previously recognise. Time to build the private practice. Time to create the website!
Also a lot more rain, also a plague of small flies in the room where I see clients for therapy, also sleep problems.
Also the first rhubarb from the allotment, cooked in a divine sponge pudding, also good books and lovely L knitting away and as ever holding my hand through thick and thin.
8 comments:
Oh shit, I'm so sorry. But I'm sure it'S NOTHING to do with how good you are at it.
And well done for telling us about the rhubarb, and L, and all, and don't forget to keep telling yourself.
You are strong - you have already survived so much! A private practice seems like the very best idea for you - your choices, your rules, your life and passion.
Has fate been prodding you in this direction all along?
Oh it really sucks how this "economy" is reducing people.
I fear things will get worse, people are being sacked to the right and left of me, creativity is considered superfluous and ... I could get carried away here. It's the 1980s all over again.
Of course you know that this has nothing to do with your skills and your heart and soul.
If anything it is - once again - our chance to rediscover deeper values and mutual support.
Oh no, how very trying. But I'm sure it's not to do with your skills. Keep strong and eat rhubarb.
Rats. Keep your eyes peeled for that open window!
I'm so sorry to read this. Financial cut-backs didn't seem so savage a few months ago, but now things are becoming really cruel.
As others have said, these things are not personal, but their effect has to be, for you as well as those who need your help.
Private practice sounds an excellent idea, as more and more people will need the support you can offer.
Thankyou all for kind thoughts and sympathies. I don't really know why they've axed me, but fairly sure it's financially driven. It's an academy and the politics are complex and obscure, but largely distasteful
Of course it's economics -- everything is, these days. I'm so sorry to hear the news, though, and hope it will eventually turn into an opportunity. Wishing you the best of luck, and strength and solace too.
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