So, I started work, and all is well, though on the first day I inadvertantly boarded the wrong train, had to hop off at the next station and catch a later one, and was therefore ten minutes late. What a surprise and a joy to find my manager had made me a cup of tea, knowing that I had a session booked and would not have time to get a drink. He has won me over altogether.... Client sessions went well, and I can see I will in time get the hang of the monstrous web-based database wherein all data must be stored. I am happy to be at work again, though there is much adjustment to accomplish.
The only real drawback has been taking zopiclone in order to ensure sleep for the first two days (a week apart, you remember I'm only working one day a week). It works like a charm at disabling the anxiety-producing part of my brain, and allowing sleep to ensue. Sadly for two days after taking it I suffer some kind of brain chemistry perturbation that makes for a mixture of depression and stress when there are no external stressors, and the poor gut is not so happy either. Ah, me, I am not a good subject for allopathic medicine. Pragmatically I am glad of the assistance it afforded, but am more or less resolved to do without next week, feeling much less anxious about the whole business.
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Sounds hopeful, with a thoughtful manager and all.
Maybe with such a long cycle to work with it might be worth using some valerian based something-or-other? Seems to me in a week you could store enough sleep that way to make the odd sleepless night before and after supportable... Hope you find a way to manage things anyway.
Good news!! And with time you will get the hang of things regarding sleep and anxiety. No doubts. Be patient. Be patient. Be patient.
That sounds so positive, especially about your kind manager.
Well done. Sounding good.
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