No good news to report. I feel quite despairing.
I have just finished How I Live Now by Meg Rosoff, which was quite cathartic, and made me realise that of course, 'things could be worse'... A strange not-quite children's book. Very compelling.
It is extremely windy here, and from time to time rains pitchforks, several of which come down the chimney (that can't be right...) At the moment bright sunlight making the underside of the honeysuckle leaves look white. Then gone.
L and I will have been together 22 years on Saturday, and are working hard to come up with plans that will honour the occasion... and cheer us up, which we sorely need.
My friend K texts me that I am a really talented person and there WILL be a job for me. I cry.
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Oh gosh, poor you, that must feel horrible. No good me saying that when the right job comes along you will be so glad not to be doing any of the others, is it? a) you know that, and b) it doesn't help right now. Hope you can push through the bad feeling to feel the love and beauty around you - and forgive yourself if sometimes you can't.
There is something about reading a good book that deals with very difficult things (when one is dealing with very difficult things) - I remember feeling that reading The Butcher Boy by Patrick McCabe saved my life over one particularly dreadful summer.
I'm going to have a look at that Meg Rosoff book now.
A friend of mine waited months to find a suitable job - she used to make (posh) curtains at home but hurt her shoulder and it became quite difficult. Now she's suddenly found just the job she likes - part-time rather than full time but it may lead to something with more hours. The same thing happened to her husband - waited months, then suddenly found something suitable, a few minutes drive away. They'd both been feeling rather despairing before that. So it can happen! All the best of luck.
Oh dear, it's a difficult time for you. But you ARE talented and worthy and WILL get a job. Just keep on reading good books and keep up the hope. And good luck!
Thankyou all so much. I do lose hope, and it really helps that others can still hold it for me.
Jean of course you are right, it is just so worrying having no income (apart from Job Seekers...)
Poor sweetheart. There will come a time when you look back from a better place and feel relief. Meantime, no one will let you come to real grief, too many people care.
Take good care of yourself, have a lovely celebration, for you have much to celebrate.
Of course there will be a job for you. My husband lost his job at 51 and for nine months after that, there was hardly anything suitable to apply for. Then he applied for two and got both! There was plenty of despair in between, though. But now it's just a memory of worry, which is what this time will be for you in the end. You are both talented and caring - all will be well.
Congratulations on your 22 years together and I hope you're having a lovely time as I write this.
Happy anniversary! I'm sure things will get better for you soon.
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