Sunday, 22 November 2015
Lost
I have lost a friend. Painfully. Strangely. Something got a bit messy between us, and I expressed concern and have now been shut out entirely, like a cold steel shutter coming down in front of a shop, with that sharp rattle and crash, then locked into place. Of course that is a very short version of a very long story, but I am feeling the loss and the rejection today. It's not the fact that something could go wrong in a friendship that hurts, it's her total lack of interest, curiosity or concern to hear or try to understand my point of view, my feelings. The apparent loss of any feeling about it, about me.
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Bugger, I'm sorry to hear that. All the usual truisms and platitudes of course: that contact and friendship must surely be worth the risk, that if someone is so intent on shutting you out and hurting you when clearly you intended no hurt they can't be worth keeping as a friend... but still, it's painful, and one knows by now that the pain can't just be shrugged off, that the bruise will spread.
Life can be long...
A painful experience. Sometimes circumstances seem to difficult or too cumbersome or too messy for some people to handle. I've been dumped by the odd person after I got the diagnosis. It hurts, yes, but in the long run, you are better of, believe me.
Still, hugs.
Oh rubbish. So sorry. And what they said. Things will get better and you do have friends who appreciate you. But hugs anyway.
I feel this. I can't seem to even find any friends anymore. I thought I had made a good one, and it turned out she was just a people pleaser that was "everyone's best friend" and not really mine... it's a crappy feeling, when someone you thought returned your depth of friendship turns out to be completely disconnected and self-centered.
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