What

What if today's not easy? What if I cry? What if it's sleeting? What if I don't feel like working? What if I climb back into bed, inside a cocoon of duvet, and sleep? What if I can't function from an adult part of myself? What if I act out, rebel, behave irresponsibly? What if I hate the person I love? What if next door's dog is barking? What if all I ever want to do is light the fire and wear pyjamas? What if there's no rescue party, no compensation, no allowances made, no acknowledgement ever that I was once a little girl spinning in an abyss?