Tuesday, 25 January 2011

Perturbation

The two things that really gave my Mum pleasure were the big bunch of white lilies I took her (now a well-established tradition), and the ten or so letters of my Dad's I took and read aloud to her. I have to say they read very well aloud, and she was delighted by how well he wrote, how interesting and funny and full of detail they were. 'I shall be thinking about Dad's letters when I go to bed' she said. I said I'd bring more next time. Now have to figure out a strategy on the more disturbing ones...

I have been suffering from very poor sleep, and recurrent indigestion. The first I attribute to 'hormonal perturbation'. The second perhaps to stress, or to my system objecting to certain elements of my diet. Anyway, it prompts me to a more careful way of eating - little bread or dairy or coffee. Lay off the alcohol. And the cakes!

Poor sleep may not be helped by yesterday's revelation that the school is asking my referees about 'disciplinary action'. My supervisor emailed saying I hadn't been the subject of any had I? I set to work to establish the exact definition of 'disciplinary action' and discovered via the ACAS helpline (a stalwart of the original drama) that there is none. My advisor thought my interpretation - that it refers to actual verbal, written and final warnings or dismissal, was a reasonable one. My supervisor then emailed again to say she'd realised she didn't have to fill that bit in anyway as it was for 'employers only'. Which leaves my other referee, my former manager at the children's charity where I was called to a Disciplinary Hearing at the Final Stage (Dismissal), but resigned before it ever happened. The question is apparently whether they have any disciplinary action on my file... I can only wait and see if the shit hits the fan, and if it does - tell them the truth, if I'm given the chance. There's no other way. And I guess they may decide not to take me on because of it - because it makes me 'a risk'. But let us hope not.

5 comments:

marja-leena said...

Wishing you well on the references! That worry would cause some sleep and digestive upset. Stay calm and well, Fire Bird.

Fire Bird said...

Thanks M-L. Not panicking! What will be will be...

Jean said...

Sorry you still have to worry about this. The outcome will tell you pretty clearly, I guess, whether working inside the system is any longer an option. If it's isn't, god help the system - but you will be clear that you need to pursue independent options. Wishing you calm and confidence.

Marcheline said...

I have the same two problems you mentioned... my sleep problems are due to my husband's snoring AND my indigestion. However, I'm treating the indigestion (acid reflux) with a product called Prilosec - you take one a day for 14 days and it curtails your tummy's extra acid production, allowing your esophagus to heal up. It also gives you time to cut down on the alcohol and coffee and increase your milk drinking, so that by the end of it all hopefully problem solved. Until the next party - ha! Do you have any over-the-counter products like that available where you are?

Lucy said...

I have the same exasperated feeling about this as at the time, that surely commonsense will prevail and the matter can be explained and understood and paf! no problem. Unfortunately the world doesn't always work that way. However, sometimes it does, and you will eventually be set on course again and it will be no more than an annoying memory. Glad you're serene about it, it can only help.

Start with laying off the cakes, that sounds the easiest place to start...